I'm due to go back to work on Monday after 3 weeks plus half term week off and I'm feeling very nervous. I dreamt last night that my lovely Y11 were horrible to me because I had let them down, and then that my lesson was being observed but no-one told me that staff now had to wear school uniform and I was dressed for the beach!
I had the OH phone consultation on Thurs and they suggested a phased return, based on the fact that last week my ESR had gone from 107 to 64 and that the blood tests I had done would help the rheumy decide on the next drug to try as the MTX and Plaquenil don't seem to be doing enough on their own. Then on Friday I got a letter from the Rheumy saying that yet again the tests had not been properly done abd I will need to get a repeat done before she can change anything! I'd only just come back from the hospital with my mum!
So I'm going back into work much the same as I left! I was satrting to feel better for having a rest but then, with my parents both being ill, then Mum in hospital for 5 days, I feel run ragged again.
I feel paralysed today - loads I know I should be doing to get ready and I just can't get my head round it. Off to sit and write lists - maybe that will get me motivated! XX Ailsa
